Dear Sweet Boy,
I can’t believe that you are already one week old! I feel so blessed to be sitting here, in the comfort of our home, thanking God for you. I may be one overwhelmed Mama sometimes – I know now what they say about women’s emotions being on a roller coaster after giving birth! – but I do know a few things for sure, and these are it:
– I love your Daddy more than I ever thought I could, and my love for him only grows more and more each day. Watching him be a Daddy to you is the greatest blessing that I’ve encountered in my life up until now, and I feel so blessed to have a man that not only cares so well for me, but loves you to pieces as well.
– I am so grateful for Wyatt the dog’s good nature. He’s been so understanding since we’ve brought you home, L – he may bark a lot, and he may not understand why we can’t play with loud toys when you’re sleeping, but he’s going with the flow, and he’s being a sweet dog to Mama and Daddy. I was so afraid that Wyatt, my first “baby,” would be upset with us when we brought you, our true “first baby,” home – I feared that he wouldn’t adjust well. But Wyatt is resilient, and I’m truly thankful for his good-naturedness. Dogs rock sometimes.
– I love YOU, little man. You challenge Mama each day to figure out what it means to be a Mama, to live this new life that I’ve been tasked with. While I’m not sure yet what that life means or looks like – I’m only one week into this motherhood thing – I do know that your presence in my life is a blessing that I don’t understand entirely, and I think that’s okay for now. I am so easily overwhelmed these days, but the one thing that you do for me, L, is to allow Mama to compose herself, to reflect, to remind myself to be grateful, even for the difficult moments (which, thankfully, have been few and far between).
Tonight is our first night alone at the house, little man L – your Daddy has a baseball game in Canton, a nearby town, so it’ll just be you and me and Wyatt the dog tonight. I’m quite nervous, but I know that you and I will do wonderfully. Your Daddy has been such a wonderful man to help Mama with you during the day, but since it’ll just be you and me during the day when Daddy goes back to work next week, it’s time that you and I (and Wyatt) start working on what life is going to look like as mother and son.
Here’s to making our way through what life will look like…
Lots of love,